Sunday, May 1, 2011

Day Eighteen

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

I guess it's kind of a funny thing to worry about, but I'm always concerned that I'm never good enough at whatever it is I need to or I'm trying to do. It's not really so much a fear of failure, because I'm not worried that I won't be able to do it at all. In a way that's almost easier, then you can just laugh it off. It's more that I'll be ok at whatever it is I'm doing, maybe even good at it, but not good enough. Never as good as I should be or as I ought to be, and that then because of that, I'll be letting down everyone and anyone who was counting on me and believed in me, and worse of all, letting down myself. Because even though I tried, and I worked and fought as hard as I could, it just didn't quite cut it. And no matter what I do, my efforts will never be quite good enough. 

1 comment:

  1. Hi. It's not at all a funny thing to worry about this! I feel just like this all the time. Whatever I do, However hard I tried, I always seem to mess up. So I trie and i trie harder. But it's never quite good enough. And I'm afraid it will never be good enough and that I will always be a disappointment to others but also to myself.